Thread: I have a stupid Fear.

I have been searching for wiccan groups around me forever. Finally I thought there was like none when I fould a person in ohio who knew of group gatherings around me. At first I was sooooo happy, couldn't wait till it was june to go to this gathering. Now I'm a person who over thinks everything thinks of the worst thing that could happen. Now I'm scared to go to the gathering I don't want to go alone & my not sure if my bf is who I want to take & there is really no one else cause dont have many friends now. Plus I'm scared I won't fit in or be out of place or no one will like me. But on the other hand I really want to go to learn more & meet new people & maybe make new friends. So what u're guys opions & how did u feel when u went to u're first gathering??

"Fears" are strange things. We have fear because we Perceive Danger. Let's see, could there be Danger in meeting a new group? ....... yes, that IS a rational fear. Here in my part of VA, we have had 3 young women go missing/get Kilt in just the last year. Even if the Fear was "Not Rational", you may well be sensing situations due to Other Gifts . It could be a ForeWarning of things to come. While we cant Hide from Life, I find it is better to "Go with your Gut".... trust your feelings. If it is a thing you MUST do, then be ForeArmed.

Wow I just tried posting this three times, hopefully the third time is the charm. Windora life is an adventure, everyone is afraid at first to try knew things, it is instinctual to be afraid of the unknown. I remember the fear I felt when going to meet my herbalism teacher for the first time. Talk about not fitting in! I was a college nerd jock whereas everyone else was a hippie granola witch type. I was just interested in learning about what Native Americans said plants were good for as I was taking botany classes in college. My teacher had a reputation for being a world-classed bitch, oh sorry witch LOL. My sister convinced me to go with her because she didn't want to go alone. I think that is a great strategy, find a partner, a friend or someone from the gathering that is going to meet and hang out with. They probably have a website you can chat on. Anyway for me I had to go thru the week and face my fears about not fitting in, about not being smart enough about plants and then to top it off she took a girl from New York city and told her to sleep in the deep woods alone! I can tell you I was terrified LOL. But in the end I faced my fears and found the warrior woman within and I was stronger of spirit after that for doing it. So I would say try and find a friend to go with you, to allay your fears and have a good time exploring your world.

namaste,
JB

Thanks Guys, Thats what my bf keeps saying just go for it. I mean it was the say thing with goin to school for DA it was closes to the big city far drive from home & I just started driving. I was scared of car problems, Not fiting in, Crime. Im a country girl a bit quit out here. lol So ya Linn I think that some of it too. Its a 7 day thing & I was only goin to do the weekend. I'm scared if I go I'll feel rejected or if I don't go miss something that may help me find myself. JB I think I'll try talking to the people who are running it maybe that would help me feel better & Help my meet people. Thanks again .